~Hurting~Inside~

I tried to be strong.

But for all the wrong reasons.

I tried to be strong for him.

For my baby.

For my family.

For my friends.

But those are all the wrong reasons.

I should br strong for love.

And for me.

There is nothing more important right now than fighting this.

And I did fight last night.

I cut.

But before I went too deep, I stopped and I thought...

"Why am I doing this?"

I know I'm better than that.

And I will be better than that.

For the rest of my life.

I'll be better.

And I'll be stronger.

And I'll fight to keep what's mine.

My family.

My friends.

My life.

But most importantly...

Derrick.

The biggest part of my life right now.

I love you.

And I promise...

I'll never pick up another blade.

NEVER.